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I totally just updated my gallery.
YOU DIDN'T EVEN SEE IT COMING. I FUCKING CAME OF OF THE BLUE AND DID IT.

I'll admit it. I let this account die out once my ex left me.  I met him here, and the site brought back too many memories.  And then once I recovered from that, well, there's no good excuse for that.  I slacked off, simple as that. I mean, I've been working, but I just haven't photographed my work.

And now I'm working full time as a graphic designer for Pratt & Whitney. Some of you may know the company....we make airplane engines and stuff.  I love the job and am lucky to have it.  But, alas, time isn't something I have a lot of anymore.  I don't even have the time to paint.  Hopefully this changes.

I'll try my hardest to update. And I will, I'm sticking to the promise I made you all god knows how long ago.  I just need to blow the dust off my camera and start taking the pictures.

Egh. Sunburns, heartbreaks and friend drama are not the ingredients of a good summer. Remember this, folks.

I'M SORRY!!!! I really do intend to update...it's just that I've been so damn busy. Yeah i know I shouldn't be making excuses like this...but....*looks guilty...mainly because she IS guilty....*

What can I say, I'm liking this college a hell of a lot more now and I'm definitely staying now that I know i'm loved here.

Expect a plethora of figure drawings...I'll probably put the majority in scraps but there a few pieces that I really think came out well.

So the college thing isn't all it's cracked up to be, in my opinion. I mean it's not SO bad here, but it could be better. I mean college is supposed to be the time of your life, right? Like, the golden years when life's all about parties and doing crazy things and being promiscuous and whatnot.

Instead I spend most of my time holed up in this oddly shaped room with nothing but an 8 inch Squall Leonhart figurine and 4 betta fish (called Walter Sullivan, Walter's Mom, Susan B. Anthony and George Foreman) to keep me company. It's not that I don't have friends here, I do and i love them and am so grateful. But I don't feel like I belong here yet. And it doesn't help that I've been incredibly emo as of lately. So many nasties are hitting me at once and all I want to do is curl up and sleep my time away. I feel like in the past year i've lost everything. I left my friends behind, and my family too, and someone else who i won't talk about because it's just something between him and I and I don't want him to think i'm spiteful, because I'm not. I'm just human, a simple teenage girl. I only feel that i've made some bad choices and I have to live with that and it sucks.

My art classes are challenging and i'm gonna spend a few weeks doing figure drawings from live models, which i'm looking forward to because i've never done that before. But somehow I'm not entirely convinced that this school's art program is anything special, let alone worth the 40 grand my parents are paying for me to go here. I might transfer. Go to a real art school like RISD or something (if I can get in) or at the very least the state university 20 minutes from home that costs half as much but will provide me with probably a better art education than i'm getting here.

I dunno yet.

I really do like living in Providence. For those of you on the east coast, i suggest you come here. It's a nice little city. I never thought i'd be one to like living in the city, but it's good for a change. Even though the fire engines and police sirens keep me up at night sometimes and the public transportation situation is kinda dodgy, there's always something to do here and places to see. Downtown Providence is becoming one of my favorite places to hang out. just me, a good book, my camera (there will be cityscapes in the near future) and a starbucks caramel macchatos. Good shit.

Sorry for my random spewings and boring ramblings but i just felt a need to update.
Love to you all, and I'll pull through and start making better choices,
Karen



PS. Christmas is next month!! Hurrah!

current mood:
currently reading: Faust by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
currently watching: Family Guy. Can't go wrong with that, now can we?

I got sick of looking at that old journal.  It took up too much room. So here's a new one, just so y'all know that I'm not dead (far from it, I feel better now then I have in months, surprisingly)

I live in Providence now.  I'm studying art at one of the local colleges (so expect updates, now that I'm getting my lazy ass up and making new stuff) Eh, it'll be fun.  

I do miss my friends though. Karen's lonely